sheddingit

I did a walk yesterday, had the incline on and kept at a steady pace, I tried running only did about a minute though I didn’t want to push it. I felt great after, worked no pain at all. This morning however I may have pushed it, I didn;t do my normal 30 second walk 2 minute run…. I ran three minutes walked four and varried it all. I feel great now though, lets see about tommorrow, ugh!

Two weeks till San fran and just over three pounds to go to hit ten pounds down!

Its been a week and a day since I broke my tailbone, it was horrible horrible horrible horrible. Everything hurt, walking, sitting, sleeping. I was finally getting into the grove of weight loss, work outs and eating healthy, I felt as if all of my efforts were going to go down the drain. But they didnt! Last week I only lost .6 pounds but I also got my period later that day so I am blaming it solely on my monthly visitor. This week I went down 2.4 which brings me to a total of 3 for the last two weeks. I know its not much but its something, I have lost 6.6 so far with weight watchers. My goal is 3.3 in the next two weeks so I can be down 10 pounds before San Francisco!!!

My tailbone is starting to heal, some moments are worse than others but all in all there has been a drastic improvement.  I am going to walk today ( first time since the fall last friday) and build up to workouts later on next week. Tons of homework to keep me busy and not thinking about food so thats good.

My jeans are starting to fit looser and looser and I can definately tell in my stomach that there is weight loss.  Anyways, I had better get on to readings and paper writting before work.

Have a great weekend!

So I fell down the stairs yesterday morning and broke my tailbone…. its the most uncomfortable thing I have ever felt. Weigh in half an hour. I killed myself with work outs and healthy food Hopefully it shows!

So this weekend was pretty much a right off when it came to being, A) healthy or B) working out. I did manage to walk with Emily on Sunday but not Saturday and when it came to food I pretty much just went wherever I felt. Ugh….. but it felt good.

I worked out with Ranjit ( trainer) last night and he kicked me ass, today I had ny power boot camp class which was doublely harder than I thought it would be - - both good and bad. Tommorrow is my Step Class… yay! Eating today has been great! I had a shake for breakfast ( blackberries, strawberries, yogurt and flax seed) salad with tuna for lunch and for dinner 3/4 whole wheat pasta, tuna and a salad.  Then its off to hit the books before my walk with emily.

One pound down. I had hoped for more but knew it wasn’t going to happen. I didnt follow anything at all this week. It was the first full week of classes and with late nights, eating at strange times and being disorganized I am just lucky I went down one and not up two.  I dont work at all this weekend so I am going to get everything set up and done for the week. I will plan all my meals so I know what to go and grab and do not make quick unhealthy yet delicious choices.

As for work out this week - I walked and ran on the tredmil. I canceled on the trainer on Monday and he was sick Thursday…. but this week my classes start as well as two training sessions a week. I will be back on the game!!!

I was wicked amazing at working out yesterday. I did running/walking intervals on the tredmil at home for 30minutes (1 minute power walk, 1 minute intense jog), than power walked 3k around my hilly neighbourhood with the bestie.  Iam more motivated now than I have ever been, last night I wrote out all my goals, goals for working out, weight loss, my goal weight and a dead line to keep me on track.

 Its nine on a sunday morning and I just did another 30 minute run walk interval - now for breakfast and work - followed by another power walk. Perhaps today I can convince her to do the whole loop at 5.2 k.

No class tommorrow but lots and lots of reading, lunch date and than gym with the trainer!

Down 2.6 pounds!!! Yay!! I was actually really worried because this week didn’t go to well when it came down to it. School started up and so did the unhealthy social activities of college students… meaning I some how ended up at the school pub at 12pm drinking beer, which countinued on to ladies night.. which was then even upped by spending last night drinking MORE beer and playing sociables and down the dealer, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t having a good time.

 I find myself having good and bad moments, I am getting comments that my body is changing and that I am starting to look great, but I still feel horrible some days. I spend time with girls who have yet to have any problems with their weight and my bestfriend seems to think her size four waist is a hugggge issue; try size 14/16 there sweet heart.  Last night was a badddd night when it came to insecurities, while sitting around drinking the topic of weight came up — the guys there took the time to point out girls who had bellys, “big guts” or “thunder thighs” these girls were all perfectly normal or even small for their builds by mine or any other standards so I would think. It made me feel like a whale. To make matters work this party turned into a hot tub party, lovely, was my thought on that issue.  I spend the entire time wrapping my arms around my stomach, and waited until everyone had gotten in the hot tub and was looking the other way before sliding in. UGH!!!

Oh well, no more beer and lots more working out. My gym classes start this week and I am still eating super clean so, yay!

So my ex got married. Sure I have “moved on”, but there is still a side of me that was irked beyond belief on saturday ( the day he married the women he cheated on me with). I believe that I have spoken of him before, or rather written. I dated him over a year ago, our relationship ended last July, and begain March of 2007. He was a world wind romance turned highly emotionaly draining. He was very emotionaly abusive, and to this day I can not look in the mirror without hearing his rude derogitory comments in my head. He use to refer to me as heifer, tell her constantly that my body was getting bigger, and even point out larger women on the street and tell me that if I got that big he would leave me. If I ate something ( dinner included) he would tell me to slow down heifer. Going out for valentines day he said and I quote as we walked down the hall to our apartment “You should really watch it your legs are getting really big” —- I think the defining moment in the abuse was when he told me that women stop him in the malls, streets and grocery stores only to tell him that he was out of my league and that he was to attractive to be dating me.  It ended with him cheating and the cops being called and a year later is still open and being disscussed in court. Why do I still care? Why does it bother me that he got married? I creeped his facebook ( were no longer friends, I just saw his display pic) and he dipicted her in a wedding gown and him kissing her ever so pregnant stomach. My heart leaped out of my throat. She is tiny, looks like she has never had an issue with her weight at all… and everything I was not. It beats on the fact that I got abused because I wasnt good enough.. I know its not true when I really think about it… but right now thats how it feels.

But I am just going to tell myself that once an abuser always an abuser, once a cheater always a cheater and that she can have his high school drop out, drug induced pathetic, 28 thousand dollar salaried 26 year old pathetic ass……

So I start school in just under a week and I am brimming with excitement. I am however a littler dissapointed that I did not loose the weight I wanted to this summer, but that doesnt mean I will not this fall, maybe I just wasn’t ready. I cheated a lot, a lot a lot — but I also had fun. I have stopped going out for dinner all the time like I use to and have learnt to make better choices. I know that  I will make more mistakes in the future but I will not let one cheat ruin my day. I use to cheat once than think “oh well I blew it, I might as well each  more now.” NO MORE. School will hopefully get me back on some type of regular schedule - if I need a break from studying I can always just go to the gym.

I went for my first hike on Tuesday, a friend and I went up to bnaff and hiked one of the mountain trials. I didn’t make it all the way but I was sick ( strep throat) — My goal is to go at the end of september before it gets to cold and try and re walk it. I will make it up to the top this time!! I leave for San Francisco in a little over a month, I am really excited. I am going to be doing the Lukemia 13 mile run and walk. I am pretty sure it will be up hill most of the way — which will sure work my ass lol. I guess I should start logging more treadmil time with a huge incline!

So my neighbour and good friend of my family has joined weight watchers and has invited me to go along with her tommorrow. What does everyone think about weight watchers? I know it works if you follow the point system, and I have heard great things about it. Is it just like all those other fad diets? Counting points is just like counting calories I guess and the recipes in their books look amazing. I am going to go with her tommorrow just to kind of see what it is like. Maybe I will join it just to jump start everything. Once I see results I will probably stop cheating so much.

My new goals for this school year and this fall

1. 45-60 minutes of cardio 6 times a week

2. 3, 40 minutes strength training circuit sessions a week

3. Sticking to healthy eating plan - omitting salt, juices and pop

4. No alcohol till my birthday

5. Try and loose 2-3 pounds weekly

6. no eating after 9pm

My goal as of October 16 ( The day I leave for San Fran, and the day after my birthday) will be down 10-12 pounds.

I just have to pack tons of healthy snacks to have while studying so that I do not run to the convient unhealthy eats around campus.

I do so well for three days and then I cheat. Yesterday was my nephews fifth birthday and I gave in and had ice cream, and today I craved sushi… so I did the sushi.

I wish I had half the will power some of the girls on this site have. I will get there though, I had a proper breakfast and I will just have a smaller healthier dinner.